This week was for many, the start of the school year after Winter break. For many youth speakers, like myself, I was excited to begin 2017 with a bang and focus on reaching out to potential clients/schools for the upcoming HIN tour. As I wrote in my first blog post, I was inspired to expand our scope to Elementary school and continuing to inspire both middle and high schools as well. Tonight around 5:00p (PST) I was hit by a massive brick, which affected my mind, body, and soul. It was the feeling of un-happiness, defeat, and failure. My inner-voice (let's call it the 'ego') was taking over and was asking questions like...
I've read about the ego many times in books like "The Power of NOW", "Unleash the Power Within", and "Outwitting the Devil" to name a few. In reading these books, I've learned how to cope with the times when I'm feeling down, sad, defeated...(fill in the blank). Back in the day, when I was younger and let my ego get the best of me, I would turn to alcohol, shopping, or watching TV to numb the pain. The most effective was alcohol as the feelings of pain would diminish with every sip. At the time I didn't know that the ego thrived on me drinking because it took over my mind and spirit. It craved drama and the 'ugly' Danny came out to play. To this day, I don't really remember my 20's; it seems like all a dream.
Tonight, I could've turned to drinking, eating fast food, or shopping online, however I knew better. Instead, I knew I had to change my 'state' (as mentioned in the blog "PEAK: How are you able to engage and get students up and dancing?"), change my energy and/or my environment. I went down the checklist of options:
*Note: Mom, if you're reading this, please don't be worried. I'm not depressed or going to hurt myself in any way. I just felt that writing this post would help me and someone else out there who was experiencing a similar kind of emotion. I'm feeling much better and am looking forward to eating your Filipino egg rolls and chicken adobo. Thank you and I love you very much :)